Hello Internet,
Woah! Been a few days. Got busy. A community I'm involved in needs help calculating the population for our little world, which I've tried to actually get going. It's difficult because there are just a ton of people involved, each with their own ideas of how large they are... So! To help with that, I made a map with a scale, to figure out how large each nation is! Woo! Currently, I'm waiting for a few days so people can send in their calculations. Uhg. Then I have to do math. Uhg. Yuck. Oh well! The community is fun, and since I'm a roleplay moderator I kind of signed up for this. Well, I guess I didn't actually sign up for it, I signed up to moderate the roleplay, but you know what I mean. I hope.
ANYWAY: I plan to try writing one of these posts every day. So... plan to not see so many week-long absences. I'm sure that the one person reading this right now is going to be HYPED.
Here's some thoughts I spilled last night (in poem form, because why not?):
it's 12 AM and i'm fucking tired,
my eyes are heavy but my brain is messy,
i try to sleep and fail again,
so i sit up and write some more:
some days i look into the sky,
and see the moon passing, rolling, flying by.
some days i look at the sun,
and wonder what could have been done.
hello, hello, good to see you!
oh, hi, hello, nice to meet you!
it's all the same and same again,
never even made a friend,
sit together and talk a bit,
oh, sorry, got to take this…"
"hello? yes, this is he. oh, nothing important. sure, i have time. be over in five…"
"what's up?"
"gotta go."
"oh."
gone again, just like my life,
asked for by the milk carton,
i'm at the edge and i just might,
oh, look, a real Martian!
my little molotov,
just leave your door unlocked,
you know you'll always be my vampire.
i sit alone and cry some more,
hoping my sobs are stopped by the door,
oh god, oh god, they're gone today,
oh god, oh god, what do i say?
run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run
mimic
the sun is gone and im afraid
of what you'll say when i am seen
will you scream and run away
or will you ask for more sunscreen?
my star, my star, my shooting star,
you are, you are, you always are,
a star, a star, a fallen star,
not even you know who you are.
die die die die die die fucking die you're worthless you're useless you sack of flesh end it now before you cause the suffering you feel towards yourself to seep into the lives of others you are an interruption a distraction a waste of time just jump just jump just jump
the wind passes by and the peace of mind you felt before seeps out your ears and into the air
your brain is working at ten times speed
the ground so far, so close, so close
and not even a chance to say goodbye
not that you deserved to
its so cold
im so tired
the sun exploded
the moon ran away
and no one cares anymore
everyone is already dead
the world is gone
but it doesnt matter
we killed it before that
long ago
See you next time, Internet.